My salvation story:
I knew I would die if I continued my self-destructive lifestyle.
When I was 13 I took the communicants classes, joined the church and claimed Jesus as my Savior. Unfortunately, at 15 my teenage rebellion went into overdrive. I never even considered my spiritual status, I was only concerned with feeling good in the moment and being accepted by my peers. I still looked “good” outside, no one questioned the inside of me.
My friends were all about drinking, drugging, smoking and partying so I made those same choices without hesitation. During a particularly memorable new year’s eve party, I was slipped a “micky” and came to as I was being repeatedly date-raped. This event triggered a downward spiral leading to sexual promiscuity as well as daily drug, tobacco and alcohol use.
Each self-destructive choice brought me to further lows in self-esteem and self-care. Eventually I developed anorexia. Finally, I believed I had control of my appetite, my need for food, and my physical appearance but I’d became addicted to that illusion of control.
My boyfriend and I lived together for two years before we got married. Both of us were raised by divorced alcoholic parents; and ours was a difficult and immature relationship. We separated about a year after we married.
I descended to the depths of the pit but had not yet hit bottom.
We eventually reconciled and sought to honor our marriage vows. We had great jobs but our nightly drinking continued until a night of bitter fighting, ended with us slapping each other hard. Stunned by this, we knew something had to change. I stopped drinking alcohol that night followed shortly thereafter by quitting smoking.
Not long after, I became pregnant with our first child. A friend from work invited us to her church and sensing we need this, we started attending. From that time, our need and desire for God grew just like the baby in my womb. We moved again to another state, found a wonderful home church that nurtured us as individuals, a couple and a young family. God brought us back to Himself and we’ve not been the same since!
It is not my own will or determination that enabled me to stop addictive behaviors. I am certain that God has empowered me to do this through His Holy Spirit living in me. This is something that I know that I know that I know. As I committed myself to Him, God has empowered and saved me.
Is my life perfect? Of course not! But I do have absolute faith in God’s continual provision and I am given His Word-the Bible-to show me the way to live. I am certain He has brought me this far and He will continue to guide and provide.
My life verse is
“I can do all things through Christ Who gives me strength.”
I have decided to follow Jesus. . .NO turning back. . .NO turning back!
Carpe Diem beloveds!